me tv kami... wala nga lang cable. ipapalipat ko pa e. :D

dala na lang kayo vcd para movie marathon tayo sa bahay thru my PC.

Text mo Selena sila Allan and Roel kasi sila naman ang madalas busy. Ako andito lang, working on some film negatives. Kung hindi puede sila Allan, if you want tayo nalang ang mag gate crash kina Ralph. Bili tayo drinks and food nalang. Miss ko narin kayo sobra. Sana may TV kina Ralph. Ok rin na andun tayo, we can work on some of the missing links on the website (like lyrics and profile)... Astig yung site. Henyo si Ralph. Buti nalang mga kabanda ko puro henyo. Though pinag iisipan ko pa kung kasama si Roel dun. Harhar.

Methink, yung "glorifying" sounded ok naman. You glorify something, you don't "glory" something. Either that, or paling lang talaga ang grammar ko. Hahaha.

Yellow! I am well! I am alive! Just checked out of the hospital this noon. Was confined for a severe asthmatic attack and blood infection. Scary-sounding, huh? Well.

Last Friday, when I went to Davao, I met Allan at SM and he finally gave me a copy of the PULP article. It was good. I just hate that part about my quote¡K I sounded quite ditzy and used the word ¡§glorifying¡¨ instead of ¡§glorying¡¨, which is more correct. Anyway, I was sooooooo happy to see Allan in Davao. I was really jumping for joy. That¡¦s how much I missed my Manila connections. What was so great was that he also gave me my own copy of the final mix of the ¡§An Empty You¡¨ EP. Yahoo. I was no longer disconnected from my candy roots. It was like rain to my parched earth.

Tomorrow, I am heading back to Manila. Finally, I will see everyone I love. I texted candy the news and they all said yehey. Except for Roel. He said, ¡§O talaga? Sino ka ba?¡¨ Grabe sobra akong nahurt dun. Sinabi ko sa kanya. He called me and said sorry and asked how I was and stuff. It was actually nice to chika with him again. The call erased all the bad blood his text created hehehe. Sana nga may practice sa Sunday, gaya ng sabi niya.

I just had an idea, candy. Kund hindi mag-work out yung paglabas natin ng EP sa Manila at sobrang kupal na kupal na yung mga tao satin, why don¡¦t we just pack our bags and move to Davao City? ƒº Okay dun¡K hindi nagbabangayan yung mga artists. Maraming open-minded dun... AT MAS MURA ANG COST OF LIVING, ERGO, MAS MURANG MAGPALABAS NG DISENTENG EP. Yung pinsan ko kasi vocalist ng isang reggae group dun tapos kakalabas lang nila ng EP... 6k tops yung inambag nila for everything. shet.

a oo... maraming beach at resort dun hehehe...

wow ayn... ok lang yun na ikaw yung nakalagay dun sa pulpcommunity. ikaw naman ang pinakamaganda eh :) kawawa nga si ralph kasi nagmukha siyang alien. peace, ralph. nadistort kasi yung mukha mo of all things. si roel, ginawa pang cover ng feature. galing. kami ni allan, wala lang.

hey, pwede ko ba kayong kitain bukas pagdating ko? ganyan ko kayo ka-miss. love you.

nyek. naunahan na ako sa pagpost. salamats.

doggie doggie.

Na upload na ni Ralph yung bagong kendi site: http://www.geocities.com/candyaudioline_ph/

Galing!

Uwi na si Selena bukas. Yehey.com.

Dear Diary,

I bumped into AJ Domingo (ex-SPK/Colour Contest, etc.), in his usual brit get-up, this afternoon in AS sa UP. Nagulat naman ako at of all people, sha pa ang nakita ko sa school. I think it's a good thing na nakakita rin ako ng tao na kilala ko outside UP. I miss that guy. It's been a long time since I last saw him. He said he has a girlfriend from UP that's why he was there. Cute. Buti naman at nagka girlfriend na sha. Sana hindi na mainitin ulo niya tulad dati. He seems ok. I'm happy for him.

Hugs and kisses,
Ayn


Bwehehehehe.

Allan, i've downloaded SoulSeek just last night. Pardon my ignorance but I have no idea how to work it. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan. I think I might be needing some help from you. It took me months to figure out mirc, i'm going through the same thing with this one.

dapat "dawggeee dowggie". konting tiis nalang magsasama-sama rin tayung muli...

Ralph pakabit ka na kasi ng internet jan sa bago niyong kulungan ni Charmaine. Para ma upload mo na ng todo yung site at madalas ka makapag update dito... Sana naman yung site natin kasing ganda nung pinakita mo samin dati dito na rejected site na ginawa mo for some company ba yun? Rejected na yun sa lagay na yun ha. I don't know much about computers and website creations pero sana ok na ok yung atin. Tipong award winning ba. Total you're THE webmaster naman diba? Sana kita sa site natin yun. At sana mag iba naman ng kulay. Alam mo bang lagi ko naaalala ang UP Maroons uniform tuwing nakikita ko ang orange and red? Tignan mo itong blog. Puede naman siguro yung ibang kulay nalang. Pero wag sana yung tipong maaalala ko naman ang Ateneo, UST at La Salle.. Purple kaya? Kung gusto niyo ng light color, lavander. Bahala ka. If you need more pictures for the site, marami ako dito. Mga three albums worth of kendi pix.

If you guys have extra money, ambagan tayo for an album, photo album i mean. I want to work on a good one including mga souvenirs natin from gigs like fliers, tickets, food stubs, naputol kong string, magazine, newspaper, online articles, buhok ni Roel, putol na drumsticks ni Roel (posible ba yun), etc. A scrapbook might work better. The one I bought for Trista, costs around 500 bucks pero good quality: Makapal, hardcover, imported, acid-free, refillable, at puede lagyan ng plastic cover every page. Pero yung plastic cover costs around 300 pesos, 10 sheets. Yun eh, if you care na gumawa tayo ng ganun. Kung mabilisan lang puede normal album nalang pero di mailalagay yung mga makakapal na bagay like strings. Yung photo album na makapal na binili ko rin for Trista costs around 1000 pesos pero refillable. Problema lang di ko alam kung saan makakakuha ng refills.

Suggestion lang: yung library mo ng live videos ng kendi, ipa transfer mo sa VCD. If possible, maglagay ka rin sa site. Kung may copies tayo ng TV appearance like UNtv and MYX, itransfer narin. Tulad ng ginawa nila manyak boys. Lagyan mo sana ng tunog sa background yung site. Intro ng empty you, chipmunks version. Yung tunog pag tinatransfer sa CD/tape yung recording sa studio. Pero kung ganun, astig yung flaming walls or felt so fine. Bahala ka narin.

Kung ok lang sa inyo ni Charmaine, jan nalang tayo mag inuman pag uwi ni Selena. Sometime this week sana kasi busy ulit ako next week for registration sa first sem. Pero malabo makasama si Trista sa inyo baka di sha makatulog. OK din kung jan, para change venue naman.

Enjoy the rainy season.

Love and Slack,
Ayn Ruth Baudelaire

PRAKTIS NA TAYO!!!!

tangina, miss ko na tumugtog. miss ko na kayo. miss ko na candy. miss ko na empty you. miss ko na mayrics. miss ko na millenia. miss ko na lumang bahay namin. miss ko na destiny cable.

text nyo lang ako pag me updates. medyo masakit pa katawan ko sa pagbubuhat ng mga gamit namin.

ok lang yun. at least me exposure tayo. letseng ulan to... ang hirap umalis mula sa bahay.

pag me time kayo daan kayo dun. pero la pa masyadong laman e. la pang sofa.

for the nth time, malapit na malapit nang matapos site natin. medyo tinatamad lang akong i-fine tune at i-upload ngayon kasi walang malapit na internet cafe. anyways, kung gusto nyo ng preview daan kayo sa bahay. hehe.

peace out.

Guys, you might hate me for this pero nasa site ako ng PULP, representing Candyaudioline. Tungkol sa May issue. Excerpt dun sa article. Click niyo yung "indie" sa http://www.pulpcommunity.com

Nakauwi na si Allan ngayon. Si Selena nalang. Wednesday or Thursday daw.

Si Ralph at Charmaine nakalipat na ng bahay. Nag iinvite na punta daw tayo lahat dun.

Si Roel hindi pa nagpaparamdam. Pag magtetext saken, puro hindi sakin. Puro sa keso, kay Enzo. Labo mo chong.

Makukuha ko narin gitara ko kay Jamir ngayon. Akala ko wala ng balak ibalik. Naalala ko tuloy yung klepto issue niya sa Parokya.

Yehey one week to go! I can't wait to be with you guys again. Ang tagal tagal na. Memorize ko na yung Kingdom Come at Lone Wolf and Cub, wala pa rin kayo. Out of mere boredom, napilitan ako magpa ID. Meron narin akong ID after four years in UP. Dahil wala kayo, natuto akong ma-excite sa mababaw na bagay.

Buti naman at magkikita kayong dalawa. Ako kahit anino ni Ralph at Roel di ko makita.

Yes Selena, it would be a bad thing to hook up with that guy or with someone like him. Whoever told you i'm into intellectual men? Haven't you noticed, I only go steady with dumb men. The dumbest men one could find in this world, to be more specific. I don't think i'd be able to stand intellectual men. Source of fight lang yon. In fact, me and him just got into a heated argument about Jean Paul Sartre's "Being and Nothingness" and its relation to his "No Exit" play. Something about me mentioning Friedrich Nietzsche's "God is Dead" in relation to Sartre's existentialist philosophy. He went on ranting about Sartre being a bourgeois and a non-pessimist if compared to other thinkers. He ranted for 30 minutes straight. To think, walang kinalaman yun sa pinag-uusapan namin. He didn't have to insult a dead guy for chrissakes. Even if Sartre were alive, I don't think he would give a rat's arse about his sentiments. He better keep his side comments to himself when I'm in the middle of trying to make a point. He just did that to show that he still knows better than me.

Oh well, sorry if I had to type this part. Matagal ko na tinatago yung galit sa nangyari na yan. Wala ako mapag sabihan.

Oi if you guys are looking for a keyboardist, I know someone who could replace Eloha. Her name is Ayn Tristania. Hehe. She's getting better with her piano skills. I'm also teaching her how to play "Can't Find a Better View" on keyboards pati "We've Been There."

Selena, you'll be surprised when you see her again. She even knows how to operate her musical mobile now. :)

See you all next week!!

Love and Slack,
Ayn Ruth Baudelaire

"Hell is other People." -Jean Paul Sartre, NO EXIT

hey! allan will be in Davao until Saturday morning, so I hope we'll be able to see each other before he leaves for Manila. So sorry about the delay... I really do miss everyone there and I'm starting to get slightly bored here... but I love my Lola and this is my last opportunity to hang out with her before work starts. Anyway, I just realized that my return is only a week away. Before you know it, I'm there again :) Text pa kahapon si Ralph, akala nakabalik na ako. di pa.

Ayn, would it be so bad to hook up with Canlas? hehehe... though I'm not sure if you're quite the match, if you know what I mean ;) I think the intellectual type might suit you more than you think, though. Pero siguro dapat may nipple ring siya or something funky like that. Naku nangingilala na pala si Tristania! I have to see her! I can't believe she's at that sitting-by-herself stage already... to think that's what I've been looking forward to since she was born! awww, man... this is making it harder to stay.

Kawawa naman si Allan. Sana makita ko siya sa Davao. I'll ask him to do the strut for my sister. I've been telling her all about it!

Oh, well... a week to go. Take care!

Wow, surprised naman ako at nakapag post kayo agad. It's a bummer that you guys have to extend your vacation. Now, I'm starting to feel like blog friends nalang tayo. Boohoo. It's okay, though. I understand. I just could not stand the fact that I'll be dealing with my professors' faces until the end of the month. Can you imagine, I'm starting to have dreams about them. What could be worse than that? Sana hindi naman omen yun. Baka mamaya I'd end up married to Noel (yung pina inom ni Chris dati, Selena.). Hell no.

Grabe Allan, okay yang lugar nyo diyan ah. Dalhin mo naman kami jan minsan. Ghost hunting tayo (sabay ako ang una mag chicken out.) I'm sorry to hear what you're going through now. Ganyan din dinaan ng family ko last year. Ganun talaga eh. Don't worry pag balik mo dito, inuman tayo lahat samin.

Selena, thanks sa pasalubong. Have fun on your vacation. Pagbalik niyo dito inuman tayo. Sana nagpadala ka kay Allan ng copy ng PULP if ever magkikita kayo. Si Trista, tumangkad na lalo. She can sit by herself now. She can also stand by herself while holding on to the railings of her crib. Cute. Kaya lang she's starting to have "stranger anxiety." Just found out this evening when one of her ninongs dropped by for a visit. Nangingilala na. Kaya pagbalik mo, dalasan niyo ni Chris pagbisita. I feel so sorry for those people na hindi sha madalas makita or never pa nakita. I predict that they won't have a welcoming greet from my daughter.

Sige, I'll be looking forward to seeing you all soon.

Love and Slack,
Ayn Ruth Baudelaire

hay naku! bored na bored na ako dito...
musta kayong lahat dyan sa manila... ako medyo depressed dito... walang nightlife at may mga multo pa... first night ko pa lang dito i saw agad, with my own eyes, a chair moving by itself... d nga ako nakatulog pero sabi ng auntie ko, makakasanayan ko raw yun... kung alam lang nya, buti nalang dala ko yung walkman at discman ko... ang lungkot, plus the fact that i can't take seeing my dad sufferreing everday, bone marro cancer yung sakit nya at sobrang skin and bones nalang sya... grabe, nag-rosary ng kami ng mama ko at papa ko kagabi at iyak kami ng iyak... i haven't cried that much for a very long time... oh well, that's life... tapos mukang malabo pa kami magkita ni selena para makapag-gig (hehehehe candyaudioline mindanao chapter)... hope to get back soon para sama-sama tayo ulit!!! miss you all!!! KEBAB'S AWAY!!!

me, too. i miss everyone in candy, pati na rin yung mga usual extras natin like si charmaine and chris and charms and the manyak boys :) miss ko rin si tristania na siguro super laki at cute pa lalo ngayon...

i have bad news for everyone. i'm going to be returning to manila by the end of the month instead of this tuesday. i talked to allan yesterday and he regrets to say that he will also be extending his stay in surigao. oh no. i'm really sorry but my Lola has requested an extension, and we do want to spend time with her while we still can. allan has to wait for things to happen in surigao too. so i guess we'll have to just wait, too. sorry.

on a lighter note, I love that quote from darius, ayn. :D siguro kailangan na nating palitan yung title hehehe...

allan and i were trying to plan to meet while we're both in mindanao. Gusto sana naming mag-meet sa davao kaya lang sa friday pa kami pupunta dun uli and allan's plan is for tomorrow. too bad. it would have been great to see another familiar face.

i am now resigned to the fact that i may not see the article in pulp until i return to manila. things are just too ineffient in the philippines, especially here in the backwoods :D. Of course, i mean no offense. i actually like the backwood-ness of the backwoods. it's refreshing. and here in malaybalay, it's blissfully cool. thank god for the rainy season.

i miss you all. may pasalubong nako para sayo, ayn :} don't be sad.

I'm starting to miss you guys. I fink I already forgot the basslines to our songs. I really really fink so.

An old friend texted me this:

Hoy si Roel nasa cover ng Fangoria! Hahaha. Ang ganda ng puta. Photogenic.

Kawawa naman si Roel.

Kelan kaya tayo tutugtog ulit? I'm getting tired of my everyday routine: School-KFC-Starbucks-bahay.

"Meron akong favorite song ng Candyaudioline. Yung 'I did, I did, I did'." -Darius

Hey! Agh! I can't wait to come home! wala pa akong nahanap na PULP sa Davao! gusto ko uling kumanta! Tristania!

Now that my frustrations are out of the way, time for some news. Just came back from Davao and I had a wonderful time there. Except for not finding any copy of PULP, I had the time of my life. We finally went to the beach and I am now all red and crispy like lechon. Maybe as fat, too. Pangit pa naman ng tan lines ko. I guess that means I won't be wearing any tank tops to gigs back in Manila.

Nagtext sakin kanina si Allan ng mga 11 am. Nasa Surigao na daw siya. Sabi niya, magkita daw kami at maghanap ng kabanda para makatugtog kami as candyaudioline dito hehehe. Sige!

We'll be back on the 20th at around 2 pm. See you then. Take care guys!

p.s. Ralph nasan na yung pic? Miss you, ayn! Di ko nakita yung star pics kasi ang aga magsara ng mga nesstands dito pag sunday.

hello... alis na ako later for surigao... i'll miss you all... d bale pagbalik ko... tuloy ang ligaya... practice agad tapos tugtog lang ng tutog... d ba... sana dami na ako pera pagbalik para labas na ep "empty you" natin at ng masundan na ng glam rock ep!!! rock on!!!

Ralph's party last night was so much fun. I picked them (Ralph, Chris and Charmaine) up sa Ababu inside Teacher's Village. Ralph ordered 6 ox brains, 4 charboiled liver and 5 kebabs. Meron din silang dala ni Charmaine na Black Forest cake. When the orders arrived, we went straight to Shoppersville in Katipunan to buy some beer and ice. Then we went straight to my place. After a couple of minutes, Allan and Sir Charles arrived. I prepared spaghetti and lumpia for our dinner in addition to the Ababu food and cake. Dapat magluluto rin ako ng sisig pero madami pang food. Next time nalang.

Siempre Trista celebrated the party with us. We took some of her pictures with her ninongs and ninang. Siempre nag enjoy ng todo si Charmaine at Chris. Sayang wala si Selena :(

Tinignan rin nila yung May issue ng PULP, yung mga pictures sa PULP Summer Slam 3 at sa last gig sa Millenia. Pati rin pala yung Philippine STAR newspaper kahapon kung saan may picture kami ni Allan (gig sa PSS3).

Chris, Charmaine, Sir Charles, Trista and I left my place for a while to drop by KAFE, Katipunan where we picked up Charms. Matilda had a gig there with Comet's Tale, Twisted Halo, and other bands. Pag baba namin, pinagkaguluhan si Trista agad. Matilda even took some pictures with her. Tuwa naman si mommy. Si Jovan (Matilda manager), ayaw bitiwan si Trista. Imagine, we were able to get inside the venue for free because of Trista :) Kahit mga taong di ko kilala, pinang gigigilan anak ko. I just realized, first gig pala ni Trista yun. She enjoyed the experience a lot. I can't wait to bring her to Candyaudioline gigs soon! Si Chris nga pinipilit na ako na dalhin na sha sa gigs.Sha daw mag aalaga pag tumutugtog na kami. Siempre nag object si Charmaine at sha lang daw ang mag aalaga kay Trista pag gigs. Hehe. Kelangan ko muna bumili ng earplugs. Like what Kim and Thurston of Sonic Youth made their daughter wear during their gigs when she was still a baby. Si Jovi (Matilda drummer), sinasabihan na si Trista na sha ang magtuturo ng drums sa kanya. That would be great :) Malapit na kami puede mag jam ni Trista. Need to buy her own drumset soon.

When we got back here with Charms, tuloy ulit ligaya. Dami uli cuentuhan. Topic for the night si Roel. Hehehe. Wala, absent kasi eh. As usual. Funny rin yung kinuwento ni Allan about Biboy and 8 (of Cheese) na nahuli niyang pumupunta rin pala sa Romeo's. Nahuli daw niya na kumakanta sa videoke ng "Ocean Deep." Hot spot na pala ang Romeo's ngayon. Isa pang funny story ni Allan yung sinabihan ni GottDott si Richard Tan ng, "Cool down, piggy-boy." Hahaha.

I showed them Trista's album na inaayos ko parin ngayon. Nagulat sila na indie yung designs na ginawa ko. Allan was expecting something dark. Well, it's not mine. Kay Trista yun eh saka pang baby so better pag indie yung design nun. Astig nga eh. Sana matapos ko na, tambak na ang mga pictures ni Trista. Siguro lampas 500 na lahat. Hirap kasi gawin yung designs. It took me more than 5 hours to work on just 2 pages. Mag isa lang kasi akong gumagawa.

Tinawagan rin namin si Anna (Candyaudioline's ex-vocalist who's in Canada now with her baby). She texted me first to greet me a happy mother's day (ang dami kong overseas text that day ah), then we decided to call her up. Kamustahan lang. We miss her so much.

The night ended around 2 am. It could have lasted a bit longer pero may pasok kami pareho ni Chris ng maaga at si Charms may curfew. Si Allan tutuloy pa yata ng Surigao that same day.

Naki gamit pala sila ng net to check this blog. Ralph, di parin lumalabas yung Millenia solo gig natin dito. Allan, baka di mo pinapublish pa yung mga na-post mo dito dati.

Selena, bilisan mo pagbalik dito ha. We miss you a lot. Pati si Trista.

bakit d na-post yung mga pinag-lalagay ko dito nung mga past 3 days? GRRRR!!!

astig talaga kami. tingnan nyo o!

happy birthday to me. salamat.

Yes... I think it would be better if you read the article yourself. Actually sa lagay na yon, my description wasn't that accurate still. I also have friends from Mindanao who are asking about the PULP May issue. Siguro in another week, baka meron na yan jan. Hassle lang kasi it might take some time before it reaches there. Tignan mo nga sa Odyssey sa SM Fairview wala pa. Ang taray pa nung babae sa cashier nung tinanong ko. Balak pako isnabin. She had this look na parang, "dimo ba nakikita na wala." Nakakainis. Iniwan siguro ng boyfriend yun. What an arse.

I especially liked Selena's line in the article regarding the term indie that went like, "I didn't really like the term, but then I guess that scoffing at the term is just as bad as glorifying in it." I totally agree with that. The same thing applies for any other term that defines a certain genre or subculture. That certainly was a line that need not be long, but covers a lot in relation to heated debates on "indie."

I also liked Joey's line which ended the article, "even though their sound may be uncommon in an industry saturated with mediocrity, they still are, after all, very much everyday people." It is common knowledge that Joey has this reputation for dissing certain bands (or places--like Millenia. Heheheh) in his articles in PULP. It surprises me that he didn't do just that with us. I say that's flattering enough.

damn, damn, damn this shit to hell!!! I am so far away from everythiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing! get me a PULP issue please!

sigh. I guess we'll have to wait until tomorrow. at least we'll be going to Davao to visit some relatives... there must be an Odyssey outlet at the SM there! I can't take all the waiting. I know that Ayn already told everything, but nothing beats reading it for myself. My only fear is that even SM Davao won't have it this early yet. Oh well... must wait then.

Sayang di ako nakasama sa Millenia gig. Matagal na akong hindi nakakaplay sa mala-Buzz Nite na tugtugan, or kung tumugtog man ako, wala namang tao sa mga times na yun. Buti pa yung kinuwento mo, Ayn, okay yung reaction ng iba sa inyo. I'm so happy for you guys, though.

Boo. I won't be there for Ralph's birthday, either. I hope you have fun. I miss Tristania so much, too, and you're all going to get to see her. Phooey. Isolation bites. (Don't forget to bring Chris with you guys! ;)

Anyway, if Ayn thinks the article was fair, I'm sure it really is. Thanks, Joey. We're glad you weren't too scared about interviewing us and we appreciated the beer a lot ;} We hope this article opens a lot of people's minds and and hearts to us. (naks... cheese)

Nothing much happening to me related to Candy. Just pining away for some info. Happy Mothers' Day, Ayn! :D Happy Birthday, Ralph! :D

I now regret the fact that I don't live in the midst of our civilization.* I guess it's high time for me and Trista to move out of this place and transfer to some pad (condo?) somewhere in Makati.

Selena and Ralph texted me this afternoon about PULP's May issue. Ralph said that Denise (of PULP) texted him that some mag stalls already have the said issue. Having learned that, I rushed back to SM Fairview, hoping that the Odyssey record bar already has it. But NOOOOO. I couldn't stand the fact that it's already out and I still don't have it so I decided to go straight to Robinson's Galleria along EDSA. It was already 6pm (rush hour) pero tumuloy parin ako. Fuck Manila traffic! It took me an hour to get there, and another hour to get back to Fairview. When I finally had a glimpse of Galleria's big "70% sale off" billboard, I had the feeling that I was about to enter paradise.

Hinihingal ako pagdating sa loob. When I finally reached this mag stall at one corner and saw PULP's May issue, I could imagine hearing Beethoven's "Ode to Joy" playing at the background.. At loooong last!!!!!

So, about the article... To answer Selena's question which she posted a few entries back--well, I'd like to think that it was a fair portrayal of the band. Joey had a good impression of us...I guess. And to think that I felt so guilty after I asked him to treat us with a round of drinks when we just arrived. I was thinking then, "'Taina, ba't ko ginawa yun. Bad image. Baka akala feeling rakstars tayo. Kapal ng mukha ko." Good thing, if ever na bad trip sha nun, hindi naman nag reflect sa article. Pero ok naman lang yata sa kanya, judging sa reaction niya that time. Saka nginitian naman niya ako nun Summer Slam. Ah ewan, basta yun.

The candyaudioline article covered two whole pages. Same thing with SPK. As expected, dinistort nga yung pictures to achieve a certain effect na parang hanging curtains or something. I noticed some typos here and there (halatang minadali yung issue). We all know that our interview took some time so don't be surprised kung bakit ang daming nawala sa article na pinagusapan natin noon sa Seventy-seven. Major editing. Title nung article, candyaudioline: sticking to the sound (and the persian food). Obviously, binigyan ng emphasis yung Kebab obsession natin (na hindi na ngayon). Nagkamali lang si Joey ng nilagay. Instead of Mister Kabab, akala niya Prince Kebab yung pinupuntahan natin. Okay lang, common naman na ngayon yung mga pumupunta ng Mister Kabab lalo na sa eksena. Look at the Boldstar write-up sa April issue.

Yung point-of-view ni Allan regarding the term "indie," claro naman. I think, Joey got the idea of what Allan and the rest of us were trying to say. Joey was able to give out the impression na hindi lang mga taga labas ng Buzznite scene ang tumitira satin, kundi pati narin yung mga taga loob. That's fair enough. Some people think, Buzznite people (that includes us) are so elitist to the point that the whole music scene is starting to seem like a "we-think-we're-indie-bec-we're-independent-period vs. Buzznite bands" scenario. Or vice-versa. At least dun sa article, napakita na this is not the case when it comes to Candyaudioline.

Ano pa ba masasabi ko? Ayun, cute tayo sa pictures. And no, we're not on the cover ok. Linkin' Park yung andun. Though our name was mentioned somewhere on the cover alongside SPK, Copper Pop Thrill, Narda, and some of the other Bands who were with us during the photo shoot at the Green Planet.. Joey was able to tame down some of my answers: the one where I mentioned Sandwich and the "We don't need their opinion" line. Basta na neutralize yung pagka angas natin at nagmukha tayong mga santito't santita. Parang maangas pero down to earth (malabo ba?). Parang ahas na bungal (sige na corny nako).

Yun lang.



*In tagalog, kinamumuhian ko na ang malupit na katotohanan na hindi ako nakatira sa kalagitnaan ng sibilisasyon ng Kamaynilaan.

I am now starting to believe that the May issue will never come out.

Hanggang ngayon wala parin akong mahanap. Nationwide delivery pala Roel, ha. Hmph! Hay nako yan si Roel, siya rin yung pumalpak nung Thursday night. Sa intro pa ng Empty You. Thursday is an unlucky day I know, pero sana di mo ginawa yun. Obvious na obvious. May sabit rin ako sa simula ng Felt So Fine at Better View pero di gaanong obvious naman.

Anyway, I forgot to post that Ralph will be celebrating his birthday tomorrow night at my place. Everyone is invited. It's a good thing that he will be celebrating his birthday here so Trista could be present (Happy boitday, ninong). I'm sure we will all have fun.

I've developed the Millenia pictures. Ralph has so many good shots. I would have wanted to keep them all but I just decided to give some of them to Ralph as a gift. I was at the mall this morning. I couldn't think of any other gift to give him. I don't have money for a brand new guitar, okay. So, pictures nalang muna.

Dahil sa sobrang dami ng mga kuha ni Sir Charles (di na nga kasha sa album lahat), I'm selling some of the pictures for 5 pesos each. Hehehehe.

I'm glad I didn't screw things up last night. We had a great gig even though I was aware that there was something missing...Selena. The set was great but it could have been more perfect if Selena was there.

I'm not sure if I could narrate things that happened last night in detail, like how Selena does it, but I'll try. Here goes...

It was already around 9pm and I haven't left my room yet. I promised Charms that I'll be picking her up as early as 9.30 pm and I promised Allan that I'll be there before ten. It was all because of my freakin' black satin slip. It took me more than an hour to realize that it was hopeless to find it since 98% of my clothing are black and my room has dim lighting and that it was night time. It was already around 9.45 pm when I decided to wear something else. I passed by a store near the Starbucks in Katipunan to buy my supply of clove cigarettes then I went straight to Visayas Ave. to pick up Charms. We arrived in Millenia around 10.30, I think. We had a hard time parking the van in the middle of two cars infront of the venue. When we got off the ride, we were welcomed by the presence of Allan and the Popular "manyak" Days who were all sitting outside.

Once I got inside the venue, I went straight to the bar to get our free beers. We sat with Eloha and Popoy and Roel, and chatted a bit. Roel said something like, "Ayn, ang payat payat mo ngayon. Nag-shashabu ka ba? Ikaw ha, isusumbong kita kay mommy." I was flattered and at the same time, I was insulted. I guess that's the way it is with Roel, he would flatter you and the next moment he'll insult you. Of course, I told him that I'm not into any of those shite especially now that I have a daughter to think about. All of my money are going to Tristania. Well, okay--almost all of my money.

Anyway, Downboydown played first. As usual, Nico is drunk. That works for him and they did a good set. While they were still playing, I went back to the bar to have some red wine. Charms and I chatted some more and before I knew it, it was time for Candyaudioline's set. I was so nervous and had no idea what would come out of our set. Earlier that night, Ralph, Allan and I were arguing which songs, we're gonna play. Finally, we settled for "My Silverchair," "Nothing Much to Lose," "Felt so Fine," "Can't Find a Better View," and "An Empty You." Much to our surprise, we did real well. Everyone was cheering and Sir Charles was taking our pictures. Naubos niya yung buong film sa set lang namin. The audience were so responsive that he also took their pictures. Nakakabitin nga lang that we only did five songs. We would've been able to play more songs kung andun lang sana si Selena. Also, kung nagustuhan kami ng mga tao sa lagay na yon, what more if Selena's singing.

It's flattering to see people being really attentive to us. It's been a long time since we had this kind of crowd. For the past gigs we've been playing with commercially established Backbeat bands who has an audience who cares only for the likes of Cheese and PnE. This time, it's the "indie" people who could at least understand what we're doing. There was even this one guy with afro-like hair at the corner near the speakers at the side of the stage who was so into our music that he was doing air guitars and all during our set. As in feel na feel niya todo.

When we were finally done with our set, people were saying that we should play more. Eh wala eh, wala kasi si Selena. Kami rin naman nabitin. Sayang talaga.

Spring Boutique went on next with their tweepop acoustic set. Popular Days played after them. Siempre puro asar na naman sa mga manyak boys. Soft Pillow Kisses played last. They had a really long set (8 songs I think. Maybe even more).

To end the night, I had a glass of margarita. They ran out of red wine already. Bummer. And I thought I'm not supposed to get drunk. I bumped into a lot of Buzznite/ABG's/K8 people whom I haven't seen for a long time. It was nice. It felt like the "old" Buzznite days. I met old friends like Arnel (of Skies of Ember), Liarns, Tiffany, Jen, Jefkid and many more. We all had a talk about our lives and how we've all been doing. They're all excited about my baby. Nakakatawa kasi si Nico (of Downboydown) kinamusta yung baby ko, thinking that I haven't given birth yet. Si Jefkid naman, pinagpipilitan na baby daw namin si Tristania at tinatanong kung pareho parin sila ng buhok. Gawd, he was so drunk that night. Baka may maniwala sa mga sinasabi niya.

Everyone else was telling me that they really liked Candyaudioline's set. They said that we sound different now but they like the change we had. It was for the better, according to them. I told them, if they liked what they heard, wait till they hear us again with our vocalist. She's the best vocalist we've had. Totoo naman eh. They're all looking forward to that.

Charms and I left Millenia around 2 am. The night was so great, I forgot that I was supposed to be home earlier to work on a paper. Since I got home real late and drunk, I wasn't able to work on it. Buti nalang, puede pa mag pass ng paper sa Monday. At least I was still able to get up just in time for my early class.

Whew.

Earlier, when I was trying to get in on our blog's site, some other site came up. Nagulat ako kasi medio socio-political yung nakalagay sa main page. I checked the address again, tama naman. Akala ko biglang na Twilight Zone si Selena at biglang mga yun yung nakalagay sa main page natin. I tried getting in our blog site again tapos lumabas na yung totoo. Ako pala yung na Twilight Zone. Ang labo.

I just woke up at medio inaantok pa. I need to have dinner first before I leave my place and pick Charms up. Pareho kami may dysmenorhea (did I get the spelling right?). You know, it's that time of the month. I bet, pareho kami mainit ulo mamaya.

This afternoon, Allan texted. Tinatanong kung kakanta ako. He thought I have plans of singing for tonight because I texted him that I still need to grab a few drinks before we play. How I wish na kaya ko na kumanta ngayon. Hindi pa ako ganun ka confident, saka wala pang practice, saka ibig sabihin nun may extra bayad ako. Hindi naman ako makakapag lasing (kung saan mapupunta bayad ko) ng todo tonight because I need to go to UP real early tomorrow.

Last night, nagulat ako sila Allan pumunta pala sa birthday ni Mich. Di man lang nagsabi. Di tuloy ako nakadaan. Soft Pillow Kisses daw pinatugtog niya, instead of us. May sakit si Ralph kasi. Tanong ng tanong si Mich kung bakit di ako pumunta. Sabi ko nalang, hindi kasi nag confirm si Allan so I decided to work on a paper. Si Roel nagtext naman na papunta na and that was around 1 am. As if naman makakahabol pa ako ng ganung oras.

I'm so nervous about tonight. Feeling ko hindi ko na mashado alam yung basslines. Last time we played, pasmado ako and I think I didn't really play that well as I usually do. Ewan ko kung dahil lang din sa kaba dahil maraming tao. I hope I won't screw things up tonight.

Oh well.

by the way... i fixed the archive. when i last changed the format, i forgot to repost the archives.

hey, ayn. thanks for texting me this morning about the posts. was too sleepy to reply right away. good luck, tonight. Miss you and Tristania a lot. Ralph, advanced happy birthday! Sama mo si Chris sa birthday party mo ha! send ko sayo yung number niya the night before :)

Allan, i'm sorry about your dad, too. I had this impression you weren't that close to him, but i know it still bites. heck, it's enough to get you thinking about your own mortality, you know. Please, magpapayat ka na! boohoo! Malapit ba ang surigao sa bukidnon? text mo naman ako pag nasa mindanao ka na.

grabe, nakakainggit naman kayo, may tugtog kayo ngayon. i guess, that's what i get for going off on a sabbatical. sigh. i really miss you guys... i wasn't even able to bring my candy cd. ralph's riffs-- boohoo! ayn's bass lines-- sob! allan's rhythm section-- sniff! roel's rolls-- whimper! galingan niyo ha... but not enough to realize you can just kick me out, hehehe... ;} just joking. give them a good show.

hey. take care, guys. round trip kasi ticket ko so 20 pa talaga ako babalik. ingat kayo.

Candy has a gig tomorrow night at Millenia with bands like Downboydown, Daydream Cycle, Spring Boutique, Popular Days and Soft Pillow Kisses. The event is dubbed as "In Between Days." As usual, biglaan ulit. But it's ok. I'll manage. I just hope that I won't get home drunk. Otherwise, I won't be able to get up just in time for my early class the next day. Nakakainis wala si Selena. This won't be the same. I'll try to bring Charms with me so I won't miss Selena that much (sappy). I was with Charms this afternoon. We met up in UP and we passed by the Kamia Dorm to bring back some stuff of her friend. She had to borrow my guitar. Gagawa daw ulit siya ng new songs for Matilda. Buti pa sila may new songs (oops nagpaparinig).

They played in Millenia yesterday night and guess who's there? Si Roel! Ano naman ginagawa kaya niya dun. It was a Last Full Show gig where bands like Musings of a Cigarette Smoking Man, Fish Trio, Matilda and Twisted Halo plays. Siguro pumoporma na naman. Siempre, pasikat na naman siya ng mga alam niya dun. Nakapasa si Maricor (Matilda violinist) sa UP Conservatory of Music recently at kung ano anong "circle of 5" na naman ang nile-lecture niya kay Maricor. Parang "american standard" sa drums kuno. He also told Charms na alam daw na niya yung content ng next issue ng PULP since may na-receive daw siyang e-mail about it. That's kind of funny since I don't think he really checks his e-mail. Look, hindi pa nga niya naco-confirm yung membership niya dito sa blog eh. Dapat siguro si Roel kumuha nalang ng Creative Writing course since ang dami niyang out-of-this-world na ideas for a fictional story. Pero mahirap din yata yun kasi parang hindi pa siya nakakakuha ng Comm 1. Damn, i'm so mean. Sanay naman na si Roel. Ganun din naman siya sakin. Pero peace parin kami.

Hey Allan, sana nga ma-release na natin yung "An Empty You" anytime soon. Para ma-experience naman na namin na magkaron ng astig at one of a kind na EP. Kahit 4-song lang. Para meron kaming bagong maipagmamayabang sa mga kagalit namin. Ehehehe. Teka, I think i'm only speaking for myself. Hehehe. Well, as they say, okay lang magmayabang basta meron ipinagmamayabang, unlike some people I know. (hint, hint)

I'm sorry to hear about your dad. Don't you worry, we're always here to cheer you up. I know you guys have always been there when I was the one who was going through hard times. Anjan kayo lahat nung namatayan rin ako, when I gave birth, and when Trista and I needed company. I'm thankful right now that even without me asking, ang dami nang mga daddy ni Trista. Pati narin mga mommy. Because of you guys, walang kulang sa buhay namin. As in wala. We couldn't ask for anything more.

So if you need anything from us, andito lang kami always.

hello candymates...

sensha na kung d ako gaanong nagpopost... i just learned a few days ago that my dad's dying... medyo na depress ako... i'll be going to surigao this weekend cguro mga one week din yun... hope to see you guys soon...

don't worry... promise, by hook or by crook, labas natin ang "an empty you" ep before the end of june... promise...

allan

Hey.

Last time I checked (which was just yesterday), hindi pa lumalabas yung May issue ng PULP. I thought they were supposed to release it by first week of May? I can't wait to read it. Para akong tanga na pabalik-balik sa mall just for that issue. Now I feel like i'm one of those fanboys, or in this case fangirls.

Nakakabato na hindi nakakatugtog. Umuwi ka na kasi. I need some form of release (besides sex) from all the stress that I'm in with papers and all. Umuwi ka na kasi talaga.

Ang weirdo nga nung chick na nag-comment about wordplays no? And to think she's a graduate from CAL. She also teaches in the university, I think. I'm not sure.

BTW somebody posted a message sa clubdredd.com about us. Napanuod daw tayo sa Summer Slam. Nag reply ako, sabi ko lang salamat. I have this feeling kasi na kilala rin natin yun. Baka si Ralph.. Yung pictures natin napa develop ko na yesterday. Ganda ng mga kuha. Hindi halatang lasing tayo. Wholesome na wholesome.

Nga pala, May nanaman. Kailan ba matatapos yung "An Empty You"? May balak pa ba tayo na i-release yon o ire-record na naman natin ulit? Ang dami na natin ginastos sa Tracks ah. If money is the problem, I think it would be better if we use whatever is left in our pockets sa packaging. Mas ok na yon kesa gumastos ulit tayo for another recording na hindi rin naman pala tayo satisfied ulit (as always). Look what happened sa recording sa Pink Noise. Sayang rin yon. Kahit ano naman ang kinaganda ng recording natin, we have to admit that we still sound better playing live. So I doubt it if we can expect any of our recordings to sound as good (or better) as our live sets.

Release na natin yung "An Empty You." May mga nagtatanong na sa akin about it. Mga dalawa sila. Hehe.

Oi Selena, bakit hindi lumalabas yung mga past entries natin dito na nasa archives? Check mo, sayang mga yun. Hindi ko pa yata nababasa yung iba.

Diba malapit na birthday ni Ralph? O nananaginip lang ulit ako?


"I have dreamed of you so much that you are no longer real." -Robert Desnos

Ack! Trapped! must... go... out... must... sing... and flop ;} hehehe

hey, Allan! Buti pa si Ayn, nagkukwento. What has been happening to candyaudioline in the past week? Has the May issue of PULP come out? What does it say? Was it a fair portrayal of the band?

I totally agree with you on the bandname subject, Ayn. And aren't all band names based on wordplay anyway? Not unless your band is named Dave Matthews Band or Cynthia Alexander Band or Paolo Santos Trio, I guess. But the rest of them are. Ang weirdo naman ng nag-comment nun. But I have to admit that I do get pissed with bandnames like DV8 and all those numbered names... but as you say, if they play well, it wouldn't matter in the end.

You know what really pisses me off? The fact that I forgot to bring all my indie compilations along with me. Boooooooo! It's a good thing I was able to grab Chris's "Death to the Pixies" album before I left Manila. I'm not a total wreck. Still a wreck, though. Somewhat.

Salve...

Oo nga, si Charms of Matilda pala yung nakalimutan ko i-mention na kasama pa natin sa Manifesto. I'm glad she enjoyed the night. Oi Ralph, ibalik mo na yung ID ni Charms at yung kay Mike (candyaudioline crew--naks). Speaking of Charms, I'll be playing with Matilda again on the 17th sa Sta. Cruz, Laguna. Since si Allan nagpo-post ng stuff dito regarding Soft Pillow Kisses gigs, I think it's okay na i-mention ko rin dito yung sa Matilda.

In relation to Soft Pillow Kisses, there's this one egroups where a member mentioned some bands with names that she thinks suck big time. That person claimed she didn't like wordplay names and she mentioned SPK and Colour Contest in her list. Ano trip niya, names like PurpleChickens? Hehehe. Talk about confirming your bad taste on the net. :) Besides, I don't think band names matter that much as long as the band could play real good. And I think SPK and Colour Contest are great indiepop bands. To think that Laura Watling considered CC as one of her favorite bands. There are also some bands who are well-known for their great music, to the point that people don't notice anymore how their name sucks --i.e. All Natural Lemon and Lime Flavors, Skinny Puppy, etc. Oh well, some people. Teehee.

Oh my goddess!!! Hindi ko alam na na-tape pala ni Ralph yung Bamboo incident! Shite, blackmail material. Harharhar.

Last night while I was in the middle of doing research, I was chatting with Sir Charles at the same time. Tinanong niya, "Asan yung_______ ni Bamboo?" Sabi ko, "Ayun, nasa ilalim ng pillow ko." Hehehehe.

Selena, I love you too! Let's sleep together again. Hehehe. (Lesbos in action) We miss you so much.


Love and Slack,
Ayn Ruth

yes, ayn you said that Ralph was there... ;)

hooray for Ayn at nakapag-post na siya ulit dito! sana ituloy na rin ni Ralph at pati na rin si Allan na marami masyado ang gawain. si roel, di na ako umaasa... hanggang ngayon ba naman, hindi niya kino-confirm ang pagiging member dito sa blog! well, maybe it's good that he leave the documentation to us...

so let's talk about the summer slam. as i said ang galing ng venue. Chris and I met Ayn at UP where she's taking summer classes. I think I almost tripped on my skirt (este, Chris's skirt pala) going up AS steps. Charms met us near Casaa and we hopped into Ayn's van to go to Amoranto Stadium. It was heavy traffic along Kamuning and I think we spent around 30 minutes just on that stretch. Feeling tuloy namin na sobrang daming taong pupunta sa Summer Slam at yun yung cause ng traffic hehehe! Finally, we parked at Entre restaurant in front of the Roces entrance of the Stadium. We went inside and had a pleasant merienda of vegetarian pizza and smoothies. Ang sarap ng pagkain dun. The vegetarian pizza didn't taste like one... felt like it had meat-- it was that flavorful. We had to wait for Roel and Allan because they had our passes. They arrived (too bad they didn't get to eat) a few minutes before 5pm, which was our call time, so we had to go straight to backstage.

The place was big. The bouncers were big (but not as big as we expected from the magazine articles). The backstage area was big and there was enough room to laze around before our set. I was suddenly so nervous because this was the biggest crowd I've performed for so far, though the stadium was no where near full yet at the time. Astig yung setup ng stage because there was a hhuge net enclosing it. I felt secure enough that no flying bottle of mineral water can hit me during our set hehehe... it made me feel better, that net. Everything was organized. Things started almost on time and the changes of bands were speedy. We did an almost perfect set, too (I think I was so nervous and anxious for the end that something else came out of my mouth other than the supposed beginning of empty you! But I recovered quickly anyway!). It was great. Like the UP Fair, it was over before we knew it, and the pressure was off us. Parang nung UP Fair, sabi namin ni Ayn, "That was it??" Pero okay rin. We could relax, mingle, eat the free pizza and red horse beer, joke around. Ayn begged not to tell about the Bamboo incident, so I won't ;} All I'll say is that I'm glad Ralph caught it on video! What a moment.

Oo nga pala... after our set, we ventured out into the audience to get some refreshments while waiting for the ones PULP provided. Naka isang baso na si Ayn ng red horse nun eh... we were going back to the backstage area when there came a lull in the middle of The Mongols' set. Sigaw si Ayn ng malakas: "YOU SUCK!" and everyone around her stared. We were laughing... tawa rin siya. I don't think the band heard it, though. Siguro sabi ng audience, "Ano ba yang taga-candyaudioline-- ang sama!" Hehehe... wala, you can never stop Ayn from speaking-- or, in this case, shouting-- her mind... especially if she's imbibed the right amount of alcohol :D

Masaya din... sayang nga kasi I couldn't stay long since I had an early flight to Bukidnon the next day, and we still had to meet some friends, hence the Manifesto entry of Ayn. We had to leave Allan and Roel there... but I think Ralph went back after Manifesto.

Anyway, I'm here in Malaybalay now. I miss my boyfriend and I miss my bandmates. Buti na lang nag-text sakin si Ayn kahapon. I love you, Ayn!!! Hehehe... hoy, Allan, Roel, Ralph, text niyo rin ako!

Kasama pala namin si Ralph din yesterday sa Manifesto.

hoy allan dati ko pa kaya sinabi sayong 3 weeks! tsaka kasalanan mo naman kung bat di nakabonding candy dahil bigla kang nawala these past few days!

tapos na yung summer slam ata. okay na okay talaga yung venue. hats off to PULP magazine! ang galing nilang mag-organize. sayang... sana di nila napansin yung piyok/palya ko sa "empty you" ;)