Failure...

me and my bandmates agree that we didn't do well last night during our set at Saguijo... there are three factors that i blame for our failure to execute the songs properly. first one is our heavy reliance on volume. saguijo is not the type of place wherein you could abuse your thirst for volume. that really caught us off guard... we had to keep our levels down and in the process, taking away the punch in our attack leaving us at a loss. altough the people there received us warmly. we ourself can't deny the fact that the practice session that we had all came to waste... if only we had practiced the songs in an almost toned down manner... another factor is that my guitar kept going out of tune... i should have been the one who could've dictated the pace and manner of our execution but instead focused all my attenion to my out of tune guitar. the third and most telling of the factors is that we "played for the crowd". we somewhat forgot that we were suppose to play for ourselves. oh well, tapos na yun... bawi nalang sa buzz night. at least i'm happy for my bandmates because inspite of our mediocre performance, i can see that they were all having a good time exccept for me and selena. it was a realisation for dennis, an awakenning for kiel, for ayn it was like in the early days wherein we go to a gig and there are lots of familiar faces and close friends to chat with. me and selena did enjoy too but fatigue caught up with her while me on the other hand felt cheated by circumstances that i am supposedly a master of...

enough of that... it was nice seeing old faces again. thanks to roel for being a good sport. also to gizelle and viks for the "pangungulit", to dott for inviting us and to chris for the 4ad-ish candyaudioline tarpoline. also, thanks to the crowd inside the venue and those outside for the support and applause. to papa eric: yung treebound story ha!!!

i really miss that type of atmosphere during buzz nights. hope that someday, if not by me, buzz nights will again realise what it has accomplished a few years back and become a much better vehicle / venue for truly challenging musical artist...

my hats-off to "an Elysium"...