wow and wow...

hello everyone...

i'm finding it very hard to sleep.

frustrated by a lot of things that had transpired during the past 17 hours...

buzz night didn't go on well as planned (what's new?)... some of the bands (at least 2 bands) that performed that night, judging from what my friends told me was too "far out..." sorry guys, i was given a very incorrect description of what those band were... just the same , i would like to thanks them for playing... at least it filled the space made by by other bands who couldn't make it last night. also it gave me enough time to catch-up, coming very late from a work related cavite gig...

i wasn't able to see the cactus garden and king's and pawns (mabuti nalang dumating kayo) perform...

i was so annoyed at what happened to us in cavite... moonstar88 was suppose to play at around 9pm so we arrived there at about 7:45pm. but because of some annoyingly uncontrolled stream of things (pertaining to how those people organized and programmed the entire proceedings) we were able to play at around 11pm... good thing that we were allowed to cut short our set...

soft pillow kisses set was a bit of a let down...

behind all these hang-ups was something more... some questioned were answered yesterday. i got so bothered to a point wherein i was so overwhelmed. distress took over and this made me feel very sick...

so this is how it feels when... nevermind... ill just have to get used to this for the mean time... i'm expecting it to stay with me for a very long time... i guess i'll just have to bare with it...

but to tell you frankly this is just too much...

i'm being tempted to clear a lot of things but i'm deciding to keep quiet this time around. from now on i will be my own witness, listener and believer...

again, THIS IS JUST TOO MUCH...

looking at the bright side, candyaudioline did play. we played last and it was quite an enjoyable set. we were supposed to do just 3 songs but the urge of wanting to end the set with bang made me do one more song...

first song we did was "an empty you" because arjay and dennis insisted on doing so. with a heavy heart i gave in to their request and now i'm beginning to regret it... na-confuse ako sa kanta to a point wherein i forgot the chords and the proper delivery of the song... next song was "felt so fine" (the old version) at this point we were back to our old form again save for the way i sang it... feeling ko flat ang delivery ko... hehehe i got so used to singing that song as a back-up to mavi's high tones... then i decided to do "better view" because i felt that i could sing it alone and it was the best choice for a last song... but in the middle of the song, my voice was starting to sound like a horny frog... nakakahiya!!! to my bandmates' surprised and also the rest of the venue's staff, i decided to do another song. kahit na ako rin ay nagulat eh hehehe... i wanted to do "flaming walls" sana pero baka magboses "helium" ako dun. so i chose "we've been there" because i thought i could do a different singing approach to it... hindi pala... what's worse is that i got a bit disoriented everytime i fail to reach the right note... i was obviously out of air... sa bridge part, kapos na kapos talaga. parang ganito "making __ans, __ u, shake your han__ do, dirty stu__, shut up, we've been _____..." hay naku talaga... pero aliw pa rin... kel kept his word and played really well... kung kumpleto lang kami sana... sana next time makabawi na...