Eve of All Hallows

Happy Halloween my dear friends!

Goblets of red wine to everyone....



Love and Slack,
Ayn Ruth Baudelaire +

Thanks!

Thanks everyone for gracing my party last Tuesday night. I'm so glad that everybody had fun----and got dead drunk:

Selena and Allan of Candyaudioline, Lara of SPK, Antz and Jefkid of Spring Boutique, the manyak boys plus Erick of Popular Days, Mia, Joey, Aisha, Annejo, Charms of Matilda, Chris, Jihad (Moomtaz), Oneil, Mario, Aldem, Roel (Five Wounds to Enter)...etc...

It wouldn't be the same if you guys weren't there.
*sniff sniff*

Thanks also to Paul of Klub 102 for the tequila and for being so accommodating with the guests. He he. I'm really sorry about the mess. We'll be back there real soon!

We kick arse.

I love you all.

*wave wave*

Ayn's Birthday Bash

Last Tuesday, as you all know, was Ayn’s birthday, which she held at Klub 102. We arrived there before Allan and Jeff, but the owner recognized us anyway and he asked who the celebrant was. We all pointed at Ayn and the man came out with this bottle of Cuervo Gold, saying it was a present from them. Ayn was so touched, and we immediately set ourselves up for some shots.

Needless to say, we got very drunk because of those tequila shots, to the point where I did not know what I was doing or saying anymore. I just knew I was having A LOT of fun. I didn’t even notice when Ayn’s other guests started trickling into the bar. The Manyaks were there, of course, and so were Antz and Erick, both of whom had shamelessly cut their indie locks for more clean-cut gelled hair. I remember telling Antz over and over again that he looked like a BA student hehehe. I was sitting with them and SPK at the bar having a beer. While I was talking to John Paul, I vaguely sensed that Lara was up to something. Imagine my surprise when she sprinkled salt on MY hand, and used it to lick, shoot and suck her tequila shot! Of course, since I myself was inebriated, I found that really funny and I told her she had to let me do it to her, too. So she gave me her hand, and right before I did it, she squealed ticklishly. We really cracked up over our crude attempt at “body shots”. We forced Charles to let us lick his hand, too, and that meant more tequila—more drunk!

Hmm… it was Ayn’s birthday and you’re reading this, thinking, “When is she gonna start about the celebrant already?” Sorry, folks, I can’t help you much there. I really was that weird. Only tequila can do that to me. I remember seeing Ayn sort of dazed and smiling serenely, leaning her head on Jihad’s shoulder for support. I’d say something inane to her and she just kept smiling like that. Well, she LOOKED like she had been having a happy birthday… :)

My favorite part was the dancing. We were all soooo drunk. Allan had arrived and had taken over Jeff’s DJ-ing. We went upstairs to watch him and we were just really enjoying the good music. Antz puked in between the giant speakers, I saw him hehehe. And then, Allan played “June”, which was one of Lara’s favorite songs and she started dancing. So I got up and joined her. And we were embracing each other and all dancing like fools! And then I requested for “Deserve” by Trembling Blue Stars, which Allan played, and the great thing about it was that we ALL started singing the chorus… “But as for YOU, as for YOU… you’re everything that I thought you we-errrrre… and I don’t… DESERVE you….” It was so cool. We were just really nuts and drunk and enjoying the music and having fun being together.

It was a pity I had to go soon after that because they tell me Charles did this really funny dance. But it was already 4 am around that time. I said goodbye to Ayn, kissing her CHASTELY several times on the lips. She was still smiling serenely at me.

It was a great birthday, Ayn. Thanks for sharing it with us.

Announcement

I've deleted my personal blog. I've realized that I couldn't stomach the idea of people reading things about the people i know and love, without those friends (and lovers ;) knowing about it. It sickens me. I'd rather stick to clean stuff like candyaudioline does hehehe...

Don't get me wrong. It saddens me, but I think I'll feel better in time. Maybe I can start anew someday. Sorry, nabawasan tuloy kayo ng internet soap opera fix niyo. Nyehehe.

Wala pa kaming tugtog anytime soon, except for the Matilda EP launch. Sana tumugtog na kami, for real.

Lastly, I would just like to say that I am not a liar, just a real person who has her weaknesses and faulty reasoning. Thank you. Bow.

I didn't want to spoil the party, so I went...

Buzz Night

Buzz Night was great! I can only give highlights for now because I'm still hurting from the late night, and the following are my own choices:

* At the Moonstar gig at Claret, the crowd responded so well.
* Weedisneys played "Where Is My Mind" (complete with violinist na sabi nina Allan and Charles ang kyut kyut) and "Paranoid Android"!!!! (Hi, thom ;*) And their volume was really great.
* Met a guy from INK who had read my personal blog and who likes candyaudioline. Very friendly :)
* Popular Days is still alive!!! They played a great acoustic set last night. Napa-awwwwwwwww nga kami kasi napaka-moving talaga ng intro ng "December Song" hehehe. And of course, bati na kasi si Eric at si Charles (Yiheeeeee! Kiss!).
* Nag-bonding pa kami nina Kaye...
* Tinupad ni Jeff yung pangako niya at pinansin niya ako hahaha!
* Kita namin si Ralph, although briefly... and he actually suggested practicing tonight. "Ralph, ikaw ba yan???" Hehe.
* Picture taking galore with people's phones...

Ang saya. Sana nga lang tumugtog yung candyaudioline kagabi. Pero ok lang. Sana na lang magka gig uli para makasama rin namin sina Ayn at Roel.

Friendster Bulok

friendster is down... lipat na kayo sa http://www.myspace.com

Posting

hey guys. I'm so glad you've been posting. it's kind of one-sided when it comes from me. i like hearing your sides of the story ;) besides, my posts are not half as funny as ayn's hehehe...

Matilda EP Launch

We're playing on November 7 (Friday) at Millennia for this. Show starts at 9m. 5 songs.

MATILDA EP Launch
07 November 2003, 9pm
@ Millennia Bar and Café
Kamuning Road, QC.

With performances by Lester Cannon, Twisted Halo
and Candyaudioline.

Admission is FREE!!!

best band in the world!!!

last night we played at 70's bistro... it could be considered as one of our best gigs for the past few weeks although there's a weird feeling that comes with it because VOLUME was never a factor last night... yes, it wasn't that LOUD!!! ARE WE GROWING OLD... HEHEHE... i just wish that some day... fate would smile at CANDYAUDIOLINE and give us venues that would really allow us (and others like us) to play in the manner that we realy like...

Practice Makes Somewhat OK For Fledgling Guitarists

We practiced, we practiced, we practiced! Yay! They let me hold a guitar again (thanks, Acel! ;) So we had four guitars last night and a bit more noise. I was only doing clean tones but I guess the noise part came from my flubbed chords, teehee. But it was so much fun. Allan taught me his super special secret chords (hehe, exagg, pare) and we did a crash course on candy rhythm guitar. Ralph said it added another dimension to our playing. Ayn said I was strumming on the fret area too much. Roel didn't say anything. Allan said I should practice. And I will, I promise, except that I hope someone lends me a guitar so I can get used to the weight and the level of it relative to my arms and other stuff like that. Damn, it was fun.

They went out for a yosi break and I stayed inside to play some stuff from Radiohead (hi, thom ;* hehe). Nag-drums pa nga si Ralph sa "Black Star". I started doing my crude version of "Just" and they all came in again and started jamming with me. It sounded pretty authentic, the way everyone was doing it, and we didn't even have a tab at hand or anything. I'll probably get one on the net just to get chords so (hopefully) we can play it someday. I love that song just because it's so loud and ear-splitting.

After candy, pillow practiced for a while. John Paul was feeling under the weather, so they cut it short. We then decided to go to Pares because we were so hungry. Allan and Ralph started talking about our next recording sessions and maybe making it a full album instead of an EP. They were throwing back and forth ideas on money matters and logistics and it was very exciting because this just may be the real thing. Let's all cross our fingers for that.

Then, Ayn brought us all home. Thanks, Ayn!

Tonight, we'll be at 70's Bistro to front for Parokya ni Edgar. Yehey. Tugtog na naman.

If I Ever Had a Line to Heaven, I Swear... I'd Call My Dead Father Up...

... and ask him why he left our family full of debts. It's Paco Arespacochaga. It really is. If you notice, his name links to his website. Oh my god, that is so weird. Nobody else cares, but I just find it funny.

Anyway, Buzz Night is on October 25, 2003. Try to make it! It'll be fun.

Alma Mater Dear

By chance, nakausap ko si Allan about his Pisay Backbeat gig and he had something very interesting to say. Seven people actually approached him asking for candyaudioline cds. Woah. That’s a lot, for a school that has such a small population. And MY school at that! I was so amazed that they actually knew we existed, Pisay usually being an insular kind of place (but only because of its strict curfews). Ralph is from Pisay, too, although he hails from the Mindanao campus.

Allan had wondered how they got to listen to our stuff. Some of them told him that they knew someone from Valenzuela who had copies of our songs, but for some reason, he was having difficulty sharing them with others. They wanted their own copies. Allan told them he didn’t have any at the time, but that they could come to Buzz Night (Mayric’s on the 25th!), and maybe he could give them some there. They regretfully replied that the school never let them out that late at night (they must be dormers). Well, we’ll see if we can find a way to make the songs more available online, somehow.

I used to be a dormer, as well. Why don’t they just get a group together that can sleep over at an extern’s house Saturday night, so they can pass by Buzz Night. My friends and I use to do that all the time in high school. Weekends, the school can’t really exercise as much control because dormers are allowed to “go home”. At least, that was how I remembered it. I hope the school doesn’t have a chokehold on you guys there.

I just want to say that I’m proud that the students of Pisay these days are intelligent enough to listen to good music. When I heard about these students, I almost wanted to sing, “Thy light our beacon beeeeeee… In our path through the world, in our fight for the right, in pursuit of a glorious theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…” hehehe. Pero Tagalog na yata yung mga kinakanta niyo ngayon. Anyway, look through the old yearbooks in the library and you’ll know what I’m talking about hehhehe.

For the record, I’d just like to confess that I’ve always had a crush on Sir EJ Baranda, my Research teacher in high school. I actually had a plan of approaching him after graduation ceremony and presenting him with an apple and a bag of our Honorably Mentioned anti-alcohol craving Kudzu candy. I wanted to erase from his mind the memory of our cannibalistic lab mice (*shudder*) and let bygones be bygones. Of course, I never gathered the guts to do all this so I just beamed at him from under my cap and toga and said “Goodbye”. (Hi, Sir EJ! ;*)

Paranoid Android

The last entry was in reaction to Allan's ghost post that was inadvertently deleted by yours truly. Don't worry, he says he'll post it again for all of you, though I can't guarantee its palatability... might be too acidic for some people, or perhaps he'll neutralize it a bit. I wouldn't know... that's totally up to him.

It concerned his thoughts about the music scene and attitudes of people in it. He wanted to leave them all behind. Ayn and I thought that he meant even us at candyaudioline, but he assured us that that was never going to happen and that we were the noah's ark. Haha. Yehey. Paranoid androids (hi, thom yorke! ;*) Incidentally, that character is from that series of novels "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy".

Ayn, Allan and I were together last night. There was a Kamikazee gig at Millennia and Roel was there, too, but we opted to hang out somewhere else for a while where some of our friends were having drinks. We saw Ramon Zialcita, who greeted Allan, and Ayn was swooning. She really was. He looks really good when he's sober.

We went to Millennia then and saw all our friendster pals from Kamikazee hehehe. Hindi pa nga ako ina-add nina Jomal eh. Boo. Well, they promised us they would very soon.

So Charles, Mia, Michelle, Allan, Ayn and I decided to get some grub and we went, for a change, to this Bulaluhan Charles knew. Most of us had Bulalo, which was yummy in the early cold of the morning, and some had liempo. As usual, Charles and Allan were bantering and cracking us all up in the process. Charles told us the story of that restaurant, how one woman stayed in the bathroom for an hour and then she left and the toilet was clogged-- then the proprietors found a dead fetus in it.

Bulalo. Yum.

I hope you are not leaving us.

We’ll Always Be Together in [Electric] Dreams

Go figure about the title. It’s not connected to the main topic I wish to discuss in this entry. It’s connected to a personal problem I’m currently having that I mentioned to Allan and Charles and John Paul last night and they’ve been trying to figure it out. Let this serve as a clue and an assurance that, despite it being “an exercise in futility”, I have found some comfort in those words above and that I have accepted the circumstances surrounding my problem. You can all rest easy, now :)

So we played last night at Millennia. There were only three bands that night: us, soft pillow kisses and superminty. Only a few friends passed by; Ralph commented that it was “An Empty House Part 2”, but we don’t really mind when that happens. It’s actually more fun sometimes when it’s just us :)

I fooled around with Allan’s guitar during the soundcheck and that gave him the idea of letting me play it for a few songs. I was excited but iffy about it. I didn’t know how to use an electric guitar nor the gadget. He let me play “Don’t Go Away”, “Flaming Walls” and “An Empty You”. I kept flubbing the chords because I was too excited haha and I couldn’t time pressing my foot on the pedal—I think I almost broke Allan’s effects hehehe. Anyway, despite the mishaps, it was extremely fun to play the guitar on stage. Roel told me afterwards that everyone was amused at that impromptu performance. The guys might even teach me to play the electric guitar and maybe I can sub for Allan when he can’t make it to gigs.

I also sang for Pillow because Louie couldn’t make it that night. We played well. Superminty did, too.

We were all raring to repeat the Klub 102 experience so we went there at around 1 am to drink. We had a few friends tagging along. It was really fun.

Indie Jeff and I had a talk for the first time. He sees through my words. I think everyone does, but he was the first one to tell me so. He said that the way I’m so honest about everything I feel in this blog shows my insecurities. He encouraged me not to feel so vulnerable to what people say or think. Sabi niya, wag daw akong mahiya sa ibang tao sa scene, kasi “scene NATIN ‘to!” He said, “Sa genre natin, tulungan tayo.” I clarified that I was never envious of how other bands in the scene are able to draw crowds more than candy can, though; I’m actually really happy that they can because their appeal helps keep the genre alive. I don’t begrudge them that… but I did admit that I am insecure, although I had always been like that even before being part of the indie scene. Actually, I understand what he was trying to say: hang-ups are never really necessary and we don’t have to show everything. Isn’t indie also being brief and understated sometimes? He was just concerned that I was so skittish about things at Buzz Night; he assured me that I don’t have to worry too much. I appreciated his encouragement. I thanked him and even hugged him about 5 times, though part of that was probably because of the alcohol in my brain hehehe.

I told Allan about my talk with Jefkid and he said this whole genre and the people in it were also created because of their insecurities, so I shouldn’t be too worried. That made sense, too. It reminded me of my first response to albertaspaghetti’s first query on indie. And I also remember what Allan said that defending the genre also contributes to its longevity.

So there’s always that question again: how are you supposed to manifest INDIE? I think it’s more personal. What does the music mean for you? All of us in the scene love the same music. We should all enjoy it as much as we can and in any and every way we like. Personally, being insecure is a large part of my personality, and though it’s not a very attractive trait, it still manifests in the things I say, do or, in this case, write. But I’ll try not to be too anal anymore. Thanks, jeff :)

Where's Joseph?

Minor correction: Joseph is not a goth boi, he's a chameleon. And that's a compliment mind you. People who know him will agree with me. He's been around since time immemorial and has played an active part in new wave, goth, hardcore, punk, ska, etc events.

During gigs, one can actually play a "where's Joseph?" game. Parang "Where's Waldo" yan si Joseph eh. Hehe. Dalawa lang ang puedeng get-up ni Joseph: (1) pag hardcore gig, hardcore talaga or pag indie gig, indie talaga, or (2) he'll wear something that would make him stand out like the worst sore thumb one has ever seen (yung nag bathing suit sha sa hardcore gig at yung nag statue of liberty at nag raggedy anne sha sa goth gigs).

First time ko sha nakita sporting his Bauhaus shirt nung isang goth gig sa Music Museum nung early 2001. Nung nagpunta lahat ng tao sa Big Sky after the gig, sa kanya ko pinanakaw yung picture ng Colour Contest na nakadikit sa wall (Documento). Oops, so alam na nila Ernest ngayon kung sino kumuha ng nawawalang picture nun.

He likes Candyaudioline at sayang wala pa si Selena nung minsan nasa Buzz nite sha at sumasayaw sa harap during candy's set. Sabay nung Mindrape na ang tumugtog dun sha bigla pumwesto sa tabi ng mga hatak ng Mindrape.

Goth mode si Joseph nung first time sha makita ni Selena. That was at Club Sex nung tumugtog tayo for Skies of Ember's album launching.

Siempre, you can't expect him to be at Sunday Grabe or other gigs na pang mainstream/radio-friendly bands. He's more of an underground (?) person except maybe pag may gig na kahit NU-related eh for a cause naman like nung Alternativity 2001 where we played. Sabi niya nag donate daw sha ng de lata in exchange for the tickets at sayang naman kung di pa sha manuod. Pag ganitong klaseng gigs, he wouldn't bother to dress up anymore.

If you want to see the Joseph that people have come to love (or otherwise), dun kayo magpunta sa mga new wave, indie, goth, at punk na gigs magpunta. He's one person who can actually tell which event ang worthy na puntahan. And he knows which gig ang talagang indie. (oops, naghukay ng issue na naman.) He he he.

Hindi minamaliit si Joseph. Sha mismo alam niya kung sino ang mga dapat lang niyang kilalanin. Kung hindi ka kilala ni Joseph, sorry ka nalang. Har har har.

I'm waiting for the day na may taong gagawa ng website about him.

I’ve Been Mistaken for Dead… But Not Tonight

I went to Ayn’s house early last night because Allan, Ayn and I had planned to meet up later to drink and be together and celebrate the advent of one of Ayn’s “visitors”. Tristia was at home and she looked a lot bigger than she was the last time I saw her. She had several teeth showing already; I thought she was going to bite me with them when I saw her, but she treated me like an old friend, and I was so honored. We played with tissue paper and a little plastic basketball. Ayn took some pictures of us, too. I can’t believe how fast she’s growing. She’s a little miracle. Each time I see her, she looks more and more like her mother.

I was still tired from the night before, but I liked being with my band mates again. I showed Ayn the videos Allan let me copy and we were laughing a little at some of the selections. We couldn’t believe Allan had videos of Ministry and Agnostic Front and Killing Joke, but that just goes to show that he’s not as narrow-minded as people think him to be. Only a little, haha. Allan texted us that he was already in Manila, having just come from a Lucena trip with Moonstar 88. We were to meet him at Mang Sam’s where Superminty was practicing.

We arrived there and found only Charles, John Paul and Allan M. Allan Drummer was apparently at the hospital because of an emergency with his father, so practice was actually cancelled. We then decided to go to Klub 102 in Makati, probably because Allan had seen it on our way to Intramuros the night before. Since we were heading to a New Wave place, Ayn played her New Wave Classics cd on the car stereo. Having bought the same tape in high school, I began singing to some of the songs along the way. I remembered high school again. Allan liked the Depeche Mode songs. Charles laughed at Erasure. Teehee.

Klub 102 was ok. That goth guy Joseph was there, the one I remember from my first gig with candy, the guy who let me smell these flowers he was holding.

We drank a lot at Klub 102. John Paul let me have a few puffs from his cigarette, just for fun. I got so drunk, but as usual I was just makulit. We talked about elephant penises and body proportions. We had a lot of fun. The music was really good and I could tell Allan was really enjoying it. He even danced a little! He’ll probably deny that. He did, though. John Paul was dancing. I was itching to dance, too, but only because I couldn’t resist the music. New Wave really is an unbelievably timeless genre. I stayed in my seat, though, thank god. Ayn was pretty calm… I don’t think she got drunk, but I think she was enjoying too. Charles kept looking at the couple seated behind us because they were getting it on.

When I went to the bathroom, I noticed a sign on the wall that said the club was offering steamed, hot face towels for 20 pesos each. I wondered what the hell they were for. I made John Paul (or was it Charles? I can’t remember!) ask the waiter, and he replied that they were for drunk people to revive themselves with. I wasn’t too sure about that. I saw an arrow pointing up the stairs. It wasn’t parallel to the stairs; the angle was such that if you made them both continuous, they would intersect at a point about a foot above the top step. I obsessed about that. I kept telling Allan that my early engineering training made that offensive for me. He argued that the arrow’s function was just to tell people that something was upstairs and that drunks wouldn’t really be able to tell the difference. Okay. I can respect a functional analysis anytime. But for some reason, it bothered me, and I kept bringing it up every 10 minutes or so. I’m just glad Allan didn’t punch me in the face for being so annoying, hehehe… unlike SOMEONE with us who mock-threatened to do so! Humph.

The ride to our next stop was sort of a blur for me. I suddenly realized we were at David’s Tea House on Timog. I remember asking Allan before we left Klub 102 where he was taking us and he said, “David’s.”

“Salon??? Weird…”

I made him take me to the bathroom because I really needed to pee. After I peed, I felt so dizzy that I had to lean against the wall of the stall. I couldn’t move for 20 seconds, and I just stared at the ceiling and willed myself not to faint. I dragged myself out and washed my face. That made me feel slightly better. I went outside and Allan guided me upstairs to our table. We saw Cookie Chua at the next table and she and Allan greeted each other. Recognizing her, I tried to give her my brightest smile and said, “Hello!” She smiled nervously and said hi, too. Then we sat down.

I was feeling really queasy by the time our iced teas arrived, but sipping mine revived me enough to be able to eat and pester Allan about that crooked arrow sign. He sipped his iced tea and said it was sweet. I told him, “No, it’s not! It’s just right. Besides, all you have to do is crush the lemons.” I then took my straw and started crushing the lemon slices in his iced tea, singing “Crush the leh-mons… crush the leh-mons” a la that “Crush the Flowers” song. Weird!!!

I kept telling the guys, “You know what, I said hi to Cookie Chuya.” They cracked up every time I said that. I couldn’t get it right because my tongue was stuck to the roof of my mouth.

So we ate, and they were all saying the food was good. “You know what, Allan; you’ve always been telling us how good the food is here and that we should get to experience the place. One day, when we drive past this restaurant, I won’t really be able to say that I know what this place is like because I couldn’t taste anything except for the iced tea. I don’t know, maybe it’s because I’m drunk.” I took another puff, this time from Ayn’s cig, and then my drunkenness doubled and I thought I was going to pass out on the table. Fortunately, we all got up to leave just then. Allan guided me downstairs again. I told him I was afraid I wouldn’t make it to my front door and I actually suggested to Ayn that she let me sleep at her place. He said he’d bring me to my door.

And he did, and I didn’t pass out. They all went home. I even made it to my own bed, and it felt so good to finally rest.

I woke up this morning feeling shitty. I was ashamed of some of the things I had said last night, even if I was fully conscious of having said them. I know how annoyingly makulit I can get when I’m drunk and I was aware that I was that way with them last night. I apologized to Allan through text, but he told me he really enjoyed our inuman. And I realized, I did, too—A LOT. It was great being with Ayn and Allan and the Manyak Boys again. They’re really some of the best people I know in the world. I remember having vowed never to drink in front of them again after the previous In BeTWEEn Days, but now I know they really are people in whose company I can be myself, even when unabashedly drunk.

Let's Meet

I met Allan at Glorietta last night where he was supervising a Moonstar 88 gig. I was kind of desperate to see my bandmates again, and I thought that Ayn had already left for Malate without me. Allan said he was probably going to a Parokya gig in Malate after all the Moonstar stuff he had to do, so he said we could probably pass by and see Ayn.

Hard Rock Café gives really good band food.

We hitched with Acel and Danny to go to Intramuros, where Moonstar had another stint. Afterwards, we hitched with Paolo and Mara to Mayric’s so Allan could talk to Kamikazee.

As you can see, it was all about Allan’s business, for the most part.

At around one o’clock, Ayn texted us and told us it wasn’t necessary to pass for her. Sayang din, but we weren’t sure what time we’d be able to do so anyway. So, after Allan was finished with all of his duties, he suggested we hang out at his place and look through his video collection.

I was scared of his dog. But after the initial eager sniffing, he became very placid. He even put his snout on my leg and looked up at me with doe eyes. It was so cute. I couldn’t be afraid of him after that. He also kept perching on the couch’s headboard, as if he were a cat. Funny.

So Allan showed me all the videos he downloaded. Some of them were those isolated hits I used to love from high school, alone in my dorm room: “Girl From Mars”, “Sucked Out”, “Your Woman”. It really brought back memories. And Allan has quite an impressive collection, at least, for me—someone who never really downloads stuff from the Net.

Anyway, at around 4 am, he treated me to a very early Marlet’s breakfast of fried chicken-silog. Yum. But my Royal’s ice had little white flecks in it, so I just opted to drink straight from the bottle, even if it was warm. Then he brought me home. Yehey. Sleep.

Seeing Allan and the prospect of seeing Ayn really cheered me up. The sound trip did, too. I’ve really needed it these past two days. I’ve been feeling jittery and nervous. Kind of schizo. That’s why I was so afraid to meet Milenyo—I didn’t think I could take a hyperactive canine jumping on me and slobbering on me. I thought I’d fall to pieces if he did.

I have very good news, though. In BeTWEEn Days at Millennia will be on Monday and we’re playing. Please be there. We really miss playing and we’d love for you to share the experience with us again. Then again, you can just ignore us. We don’t mind. Haha.

here are the lyrics to my favourite song of the moment ... it's from the pale saints:

Pale Saints - Time Thief

Thought we could breathe easily
It’s not often on the weak
Instead now it descends
To sow our dreams
And mail us into blank...

Chase it cos it’s dangerous on foot
You know I’d help you if I wanted to
hang on because i'll Try to fill a hole inside the pain
Lives inside this house
Lives in both of us
time thief strike don't we realise

Frightened of the world pretend
that It’s your favourite daddy shirt and
Wear it we’re in outer space
The money’s falling through the wall again
Lives inside this house
Lives in both of us
time thief strike don't we realise


Round and round and round we go
The words are breezing and there’s always
One more clue to comprehend
it's not yet through they'll jump into your head
Lives inside this house
Lives in both of us
time thief strike don't we realise

Allan is Sad Inside

I talked to Allan last night. He’s afraid that his schedule will be too tight to see us this sembreak because of more and more Parokya gigs coming up. Told him we’d still be here.

Does anyone want to cheer him up? There’s a tag board to the right ---------->

Don’t worry. We’ll be back.

An Empty House

That's the title of a variation of the song we'll be making soon. Just kidding. More like a description of last Saturday night's event. Basically, the only people who were there were Roel's girlfriend's students (Happy birthday, Jen!) and the bands. Balloon Derby didn't even come, so it was only us, Soft Pillow Kisses, Gish and Soapdish. Despite multiple plugs on NU 107, people didn't come. Some people whom Allan had invited came, but were confused by the sign outside which said, "Pitong Stop", instead of "Pit Stop", so they ended up leaving anyway. No use quibbling whose fault that was... guess it was too sudden to expect people to turn up. It was ok.

Ayn and I arrived at around a quarter to ten. Roel was already there with Jen, as usual. We ordered tokwa't baboy and a few drinks. The staff were nice to us, so I won't bitch :) I think even that woman who I don't like was there, and she didn't hound us or anything. Tiffany said hi to us, no doubt remembering our last conversation under the influence of alcohol. I shyly said hello. Hope she didn't misconstrue that as artifice.

The other bands arrived and we all watched "Desperado" on AXN while waiting for Allan, who was fashionably late (harhar). Gish opened the night with songs from Coldplay, Radiohead, and a few originals. I think Popo sang better than the guest Stonefree guy, who's probably too used to singing their own songs to resist the temptation to do vocal gymnastics. Urk.

Then we played. Jeff of Soapdish requested "pretend we're smart" but you know how Allan gets whenever people request. Jeff made faces at me for that.

Then Soapdish played and they were good, as usual. They're better than most of the bands I hear on the radio, and they're catchy enough to be popular, so I don't know why they're still stuck playing with us hehehe. Anyway, it's always fun to have them around.

Soft Pillow Kisses ended the night with a few of their long lost originals. It was refreshing, and I think Louie is really improving :) See? It just takes a lot of getting used to singing with Allan, dear.

After that, Ian and 8 of Cheese passed by to show Allan a video of their performance at the Muziklaban finals. I don't know why.

We stepped outside and realized that someone had again changed the title of the event into "soppotting". How appropriate.

We then headed on to Mister Kebab where we starved for about half an hour before they finally brought us our food.

Hmm. We have no idea what's in store for us anytime soon.

Millennia Tonight!

We’re playing at Millennia tonight and the event is haphazardly entitled: PIT STOP. Please pass by. Soapdish, Balloon Derby and Soft Pillow Kisses are playing, too, and I think there are other bands lined up as well. Ralph is alive, thank god, and so are we. See you tonight!

Fox Square Cancelled

Kami lang yung na-cancel. We can't play tomorrow night because Roel has work tomorrow. He has to leave Manila in the afternoon. This sucks vacuum I know. I hope that Allan has texted the organizer about it already. The rest of us might still go there to watch the gig. To the readers, punta parin kayo.

Allan told me that Sonnet LVIII's drummer will be sessioning for us. I hope that we can practice with him anytime soon so this won't happen again.

Ano meron sa Millennia sa saturday?

ops teka.

we won't be playing tomorrow night because roel will be in laguna. too bad. saturday night though, we might be in millenia.

Nawawala si Ralphyyy

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALPHHHHH! Ano bang nangyari sayo? All of us have been texting you and calling you up on the phone about our gigs, but you never answer. When we call Charmaine’s phone up, a guy answers and shuts the phone on us (although, she’s probably changed numbers, we don’t really know…). What’s happened? Are you still alive? Where are you? Do we have to file a missing persons report? Something is fricking wrong with your phone, man.

Hindi na tuloy kami nakatugtog nung Wednesday kasama ang Kamikazee at Monsterbot.

Anyway, we’ll probably be playing late tomorrow night because Allan and Roel will still have to be coming from the Oktoberfest in Libis (because of Moonstar 88). We might be playing on Saturday night, I don’t know where yet. Keep posted. And if you find Ralph, send an email to the mailing list. Baka taong-grasa na siya ngayon na lumilibot sa harap ng Mayric’s, huhuhuhuhuhu…. *sniff*