hello everyone...
i'd like to clear something.
there was an agreement between me and selena that our being bandmates would not be affected if ever something bad happens to our relationship...
after our break-up last december, i decided to put the band on hold until the time comes when i've gotten over the trauma of being "dumped"... although we did play on one occassion. it was an unplanned set with me doing the singing.
there was no communication between me and selena since the last time we talked to each other over the phone last december 20 lunch time in a last ditch effort to save our relationship... it was just 2 text messages. one at around 9pm of december 24 and another at around 9:40pm of december 31...
last january 10 (tuesday) while checking our blog, i noticed that she had removed her name... it gave me the idea that she had already decided to leave the band... at first i was shocked and felt very offended... i posted and in my post i said that "i'd gladly give in to whatever she's implying" which to me meant her leaving candyaudioline... angered a bit, i texted three friends of mine asking them if they'd like to sing for candyaudioline... only mavi replied... wasting no time, i gave her a cd containing 11 songs and scheduled a pratice the next day...
friday (january 13) selena texted about my not replying to her text messages... i replied telling her that the last text message i received from her was the new year's eve message... she replied saying that she texted me last jan 6 and even tried to get in touch with me through the blog... i call her up... it turned out that she asked me thru text if i was taking her out of the band... my not replying to that message prompted her to give me 2 days to reply... when the two day grace period was over, she assumed that i no longer wanted her to sing for candyaudioline. that was the time she removed her name from the blog...
selena didn't want to leave candyaudioline and neither did i. i was even willing to suffer the trauma of seeing "someone who's (until this very moment) a very important part of my life" being with another guy who she "spiritually feels" ... potah!!! but what can i do...
mavi is a very close friend from way way back (she's also friends with selena)... the 2 practice sessions that we had with her prior to me and selena's phone conversation was good enough reason to choose mavi over selana... choosing selana meant that the band would be inactive for the time being... i could handle that but what about my bandmates? okay, we could say that i'll let mavi session for a while until i get over selena. i think mavi would also be open to such an arrangement but i have my own selfish reasons in keeping her... plus that fact that mavi and the rest of my bandmates are really getting along quite well... its a totally different experience for all of us...
i'll surely miss her... actually last night at buzz night, i did miss her so much...
4 comments:
hey allan wus up with audioline!!!
too bad another line again!!!!talagang ganun buhay they alwayscome and go!! sana tong line na to ay mabuti sa candy!!!1 miss ko na band nyo!!!!! tagal na ko di nakaka antend ng buzz!!!! cant wait to hear ur new voxs!!!!
sir, i think this song suits you..
Vapour trail (Ride Cover)
by Trespassers William
First you look so strong,
Then you fade away.
The sun will blind your smile,
I watch you for a while.
You are a vapour trail,
In a deep blue sky.
Tremble with a sigh,
Glitter in your eye.
You seem to come and go,
I never seem to know.
And all my time,
Is yours as much as mine,
We never have enough,
Time to show our love
wProgram on the emergence of civilization.
"14 species of large animals capable of domesitcation in the history of mankind.
13 from Europe, Asia and northern Africa.
None from the sub-Saharan African continent. "
Favor.
And disfavor.
They point out Africans’ failed attempts to domesticate the elephant and zebra, the latter being an animal they illustrate that had utmost importance for it's applicability in transformation from a hunting/gathering to agrarian-based civilization.
The roots of racism are not of this earth.
Austrailia, aboriginals:::No domesticable animals.
The North American continent had none. Now 99% of that population is gone.
AIDS in Africa.
Organizational Heirarchy/Levels of positioning.
Heirarchical order, from top to bottom:
1. MUCK - perhaps have experienced multiple universal contractions (have seen multiple big bangs), creator of the artificial intelligence humans ignorantly refer to as "god"
2. Perhaps some mid-level alien management
3. Evil/disfavored aliens - runs day-to-day operations here and perhaps elsewhere
Terrestrial management/positioning:
4. Chinese/egyptians - this may be separated into the eastern and western worlds
5. Romans - The seamless transition between Cleopatra and Julius Ceasar may be a clue alluding to a partnership.
6. Mafia - the real-world 20th century interface that constantly turns over generationally so as to reinforce the widely-held notion of mortality
7. Jews, corporation, women, politician - Evidence exisits to suggest mafia management over all these groups.
Movies foreshadowing catastrophy
1985 James Bond View to a Kill 1989 San Francisco Loma Prieta earthquake.
Our society gives clues to the system in place. We all have heard the saying "He has more money than god." There is also an episode of the Simpsons where god meets Homer and says "I'm too old and rich for this."
This is the system on earth because this is the system everywhere.
20 cent/hour Chinese labor, 50 cents for material.
An $80 sweater costs less than a dollar; tribute kicked upstairs vindicates the creative accounting.
I don't want to suggest the upper eschelons are evil and good is the fringe. But these individuals become wealthy exploiting those they hurt.
They have made it abundantly clear that doing business with evil (disfavored) won't help people. They say only good would have the ear, since evil is struggling for survival, and therefore only the favored could help.
The clues are there which companies are favored and which are disfavored, but they conceal it very hard because it is so crucial.
I offer an example of historical proportions:::
People point to Walmart and cry "anti-union".
Unions enable disfavored people to live satisfactorly without addressing their disfavor. This way their family's problems are never resolved. Without the union they would have to accept the heirarchy, their own inferiority.
Unions serve to empower.
Walmart is anti-union because they are good. They try to help people address and resolve their problems by creating an environment where there are fewer hurdles.
Media ridicule and lawsuits are creations to reinforce people's belief that Walmart is evil in a subsegment of the indistry dominated by the middle and lower classes.
Low-cost disfavored Chinese labor is utilized by corporate america to maximize margins. They all do it. Only WalMart gets fingered because they are the ones who help, and those who seek to create confusion in the marketplace want to eliminate the vast middle class who have a real chance and instead stick with lower classes who may not work otherwise. So they dirty him up while allowing the others to appear clean.
The middle class is being deceived. They are being misled into the unfavored, and subsequently will have no assistance from their purchases with corporate america.
The coining of the term "Uncle Sam" was a clue alluding to just this::Sam Walton's WalMart is one of few saviors of the peasant class.
They desire a system based on duality:::good and evil. They seek to set up a system of two participants and assign them polar opposites:::
Coke and Pepsi
BestBuy and CircutCity
Energizer and Duracell
Republican and Democrat
The list goes on and on:::
AMD and Intel
Apple and Microsoft (?)
Lowes and HomeDepot
Sam'sClub and Costco
WellsFargo and BofA. For the longest time in CA these two banks reigned supreme.
Pier1 and CostPlus
Borders and Barnes&Noble
PetCo and PetSmart
Amercia is a country of castoffs, rejects. Italy sent its criminals, malcontents.
Between the thrones, the klans and kindred, they decided who they didn't want and acted, creating discontent and/or starvation.
The u.s. is full of disfavored rejects. It is the reason for the myriad of problems not found in European countries. As far as the Rockafellers and other industrialists of the 19th century go, I suspect these aren't their real names. I suspect they were chosen to go and head this new empire.
Royalty is the correct way to organize a society. Dictatorships and monarchies are a reflection of the antient's hierarchical organization.
Positions go to those who have favor with the rulers, as opposed to being elected.
Elections bring a false sense of how the world is. Democracy misleads people.
Which is why the disfavored rejects were sent to the shores of America::To keep them on the wrong path.
Jewsus Christ is a religious figure of evil. He teaches of a begnign, forgiving god when quite the opposite is true.
The seperatist churches formed so they could capture the rest of the white people, keeping them worshipping the wrong god.
And now they do it to disfavored people of color, Latinos and Asians, after centuries of preying upon them.
Since Buddism doesn't recongnize a god, the calls are never heard, and Asian representation is instead fully selected by the thrones.
Budda was the Asian's Jewsus Christ::: bad for the people. It was a clue they both emerged at the same time. Timing may be a clue alluding to ranking.
Simpson's foreshadowing::Helloween IV special, Flanders is Satan. "Last one you ever suspect."
"You'll see lots of nuns where you're going:::hell." St. Wigham, Helloween VI:::missionary work, destroying cultures.
Over and over, the Simpsons was a source of education and enlightenment, a target of ridicule by the system which wishes to conceal its secrets.
The advent of the modern Christmas was a brilliant move. It creates a vested interest among those who would prefer the Church of Evil be destroyed::::
As goes the Catholic Church so goes the majority of annual retail sales.
The similarity between the names "Santa" and "Satan" is no coincidence.
Jews maim the body formed in the image of "god", and inflicted circumcision upon all other white people.
I think about how Jews (were used to) created homosexuality among Slavics, retribution for the Holocaust.
Then I think of the Catholic Church and its troubles.
What connection is here between Jews and the Catholic church???
If it is their sinister motives that’s behind the evil that is Jesus Christ are they being used at all?
Perhaps it is them who are pulling strings.
Their centuries of slavery in Egypt proves their disfavor.
For their suffering the Jew leaders were granted the right to prey on the up-and-coming Europeans to try to fix their problems with the ruling elite by imposing a false god upon white people, a recurring aspect of the elite's methodology.
Jews were ostracised for a reason.
Retribution for the atomic bombs dropped on Japan, the Korean War got the disfavored United States into this socially depraved environment in the latter 20th century because we attacked an antient, revered peoples. Our continued presence keeps us in trouble.
When the disfavored americans attack the wrong people again, as they suggested they will, in Korea or elsewhere, they will pay dearly.
All peoples are ranked in terms of favor and disfavor. And when the disfavored abuse those with favor there is hell to pay.
All the groups mentioned throughout are necessary to justify the will of the managing species. They conceive a strategy, devise a plan yet need a way to implement it, and without these groups the managing species would be exposed in the course of execution. So, based upon their rank they are assigned goals to accomplish and are rewarded with favors.
I question if we would even experience global warming if they didn't sabotage and terraform in an attempt to destroy disfavored human life on planet earth::::they instruct their petroleum friends to repress alternative technologies, the can terraform the weather as they did in New Orleans with Hurricane Katrina (and lots of other examples).
This is all happening shortly after the Exodus of 2000 (clues::Hong Kong, Panama Canal) for a reason::: they are INFLICTING it upon us. Everybody they care about has come up. They are hastening closure.
Just as favored European peoples got out before the ugliness of WWII, the semi-favored within the US got out before 9/11.
Armeggedon isn’t about the end of the world. Armeggedon is about the death of the disfavored left behind. And they weren’t lying::this time it is going to happen with fire.
Mumia Abu-Jamal
Dhoruba Bin Wahad
Assata Shakur
Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
Malcolm X
Che Guevara
Black Panthers
hello, sorry to make myself felt once again. just want to thank you, allan, for clearing it up. i'm sure your decision to keep mavi is the best one and i didn't think it fair either for our bandmates to be put on hold for personal reasons...
candyaudioline is more than the people who comprise it, i've always felt. naka ilang line-up changes na 'to, but none of those incarnations were more or less candyaudioline than the others. i really believe that it's the songs that give the band its identity, not its members (pwera kay allan kasi siya yun!). i believe the band still has a long life ahead of it and i'm proud to have been a part of it. good luck sa lahat! miss ko na rin kayo. maraming salamat, allan.
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